Reznjun

that weather forecast kinda sums up alot of things. like the governments approach to the economy, we spend a trillion or so it might fix it. or it might not. the republicans spent that much and caused the problems. the democrats say spend that much more and the problem is solved. gardening is the same way. plant some seed and it might grow. or it might not. we got a traditional gardening program that uses tractors. they might grow better. or not.  we have people that show up at general councils to say lets not try anything, we might fail. the chicken little approach, lets stay inside cuz the sky is falling.  lots of things in life are just basically a 50/50 chance.  the fear of failure doesnt stop us tho. got to take chances. the possibility that it will work is the reason to try anything. when i walk into a casino i dont feel like i will lose. i believe i will win. after i lose my money i know the chance for failure was real. but reality is that i could have won. but then most gamblers dont consider gambling to be a gamble.

speaking of gardening. i dont know what to think of the weather. i dont remember when it has been this cool this late into spring. i still have a fire going cuz it is cold at night. tonight is suppose to be 20 degrees. the tv guy said to cover any plants. i see that my onions are greening up. they will grow. my potatoes havent broken ground yet, tho they should have by now. i hope i dont have to replant them. just have to wait and see. on the upside we have had alot of moisture. nothing grows without it.

got an email. some non native guy asked to have a spiritual leader from the rez  to do a wedding. he dont want a justice of the peace to do it. i agree with him, that is so impersonal. i have married a non native couple in hoyt before. they said they didnt want a j.p.  and they didnt subscribe to mainstream religion. so they thought it would be cool if a guy like me did it. i am like stephen colbert-i dont see race. i did it for them. they were such nice people.

i went thru the trouble of getting a legal opinion. the law governing who can perform weddings doesnt exclude native spiritual people, it just doesnt include them. everyone is mentioned but natives.  i started with our county attorney and up thru the ranks to the state attorney general. they wrote me a letter that basically said ‘go ahead chief’.  and our tribal court says a guy like me can perform weddings if i know my place. i can only do them on the rez. thats bullshit. no one can tell a priest, minister, rabbi or iman that they can only perform weddings in topeka or mayetta.  thats why i agreed to do do that wedding for that couple in hoyt. i never really learned my place. to sorta paraphrase popeye ‘i yam what i yam’ —no matter where ever i yam.

i check the newspaper to see whos birthday it is, then i play one of their tunes. today is merle haggards birthday, so i am playing some of his music. i went to see him in concert at our casino. i took this picture of him and several others. i kept taking them til the security guards told me to sit down. dont know what they woulda did if i refused to sit down. maybe they would have shined their flashlight in my face. so i headed back to where the indians that paid for their own tickets sat. he put on a good show. i dont see why they dont have more concerts like that. the place was packed, couldnt find a slot to play. the reason given is that they dont make money. when i walked thru the casino i could hear the noise of the machines being played. indian casinos have revived the careers of many. you can see everyone that you missed years ago at a casino today.

my bracket in the ncaa basketball tourney has been eliminated long ago. i picked the jayhawks to beat mich.st.  we are in the hunt to sign one more player for next year. we signed a point guard and power forward that rated high. and a 7 foot center transferred. two top rated shooting guards are still considering KU. if we sign either i will fill out next years bracket now with the hawks to win it all. even our debate team kicks ass.

my chickens are laying about 6 eggs a day. they are the big brown ones. this is after the doc said i had high cholesterol. suppose to give them up. oatmeal is my option. i hated that stuff when i went to a parochial boarding school. the nuns stood over you til it was gone. we had to eat it everyday, cept sundays. then we got stale corn flakes. i have to learn to eat it again. i am making a serious effort to improve my health. i want to live to be a cranky old man. most mean old guys arent cool. i think i could be a cool one.