new look, same me

I bought a t shirt at our pow wow that has the above logo on it. hope that because it says every child matters it don’t cause a back lash from some racist. I  am one of those that survived indian boarding school days. we didn’t call them residential schools though, that makes them sound nice. this shirt is meant to be worn on September 30th as part of an awareness about boarding I mean residential schools across Canada eh.

I have an entire chapter about boarding school in my book. a couple of people read that chapter. one said she was half way through reading it when she realized it was a first person account about boarding school. oh ennit. most of the ones that talk bout those days haven’t been there. this indian was.

I will wear this shirt today in solidarity with my bros and sisters that survived indian boarding schools. and the ones that didn’t.  I have run across a few I went to school with. I met some back in the aim days. a few got radical like me. I met some in bars. some became alcoholic and/or drug abusers. again like me. many like me turned to native spirituality. I met a few in prison. I was working in there, they were doing time. the way we were treated in boarding school had a lasting effect on us.  I am glad we made it in spite of boarding school.

my site has undergone some change. new look, same me. my blog is easier to read on cell phones.  I am making roaches since I retired. I want to show case them. that was the purpose of this website originally. I only blogged to keep the site updated.  a pay pal button was added to pay for a roach. I will keep adding roaches as i make them.

I love my website. I will keep it going. at one time my site was on page one of most search engines. don’t know how but it dropped off since then. hopefully I will get it ranked higher. many of the pictures on the image page of search engines show my roaches. that’s a plus I guess.

when we were giving our south Dakota guests a tour I stopped to show them what indian tea looked like. I seen that it has a second growth after the hay has been cut. I picked a bag full to last me thru winter. I picked about two pounds of tea. that should last me. I drink it almost every day.

I am heading to Tulsa today to see my daughter wabenokwe. I will miss one of our ceremonies tomorrow because of that. I have only seen my daughter a few times in the past year because she works away from home. I love my kids. I have to see them whenever I can. I will have a five hour drive down there and pick wabenokwe up at the airport. time to hit the road.

almost october…..

I went for a walk in the timber with my dogs yesterday. my knee is a lot better. I ain’t limping anymore. I walked for an hour.  I won’t let the arthritis keep me down. if I don’t walk, the arthritis in my back causes me pain.

I was looking for paw paws. I filled up my backpack with them in the first paw paw grove I came to. there are more  groves along the creek but I had enough. I will take some to doings for indians that like them.

I seen 3 squirrels in the trees. I heard more barking. I will have to go back when the leaves fall. hopefully I will get a few. I haven’t hunted for some time. it will be good to be back out in nature. it is always so peaceful.

we drove on back roads when we were giving marys friends a tour of the rez. we seen a farm that had free tomatoes. we stopped and picked some up. I like to eat fresh home grown tomatoes. they taste way better than store bought. I told mary we might have to go back and check again. this place had lotsa plants with tomatoes on them. mine didn’t do that good.

my grow boxes are full now. I have turnips, beets, jalapenos, Anaheim peppers and sweet potatoes. I ate a fresh turnip. it was good. I have put away lotsa green chiles and cant give away my surplus of anaheims. my nephew is supposed to come get some. yeah.

I was pricing wild rice on line. I was shocked to see how high some was priced. I know a guy in the north country that fixes big batches of it. I helped him do that once. my arms got tired from constantly turning the parched rice. I was going to buy a big lot from him. he was suppose to contact me when it was all done. he never did call. I was thinking I had a good connection.

I called my sister in law that lives up north. she told me she could get some at an elder and tribal member price. it would cost from 6 to 6.50 a pound. I said great. she can get the real wild rice that is light in color. it tastes better and takes less time to cook. it isnt the cultivated kind that is always dark colored. I would take at least 5 pounds. I am glad I contacted her. I will eat wild rice as often as I can get it.

I will head down to Tulsa for a day or two. my daughter will be there for a conference. I haven’t seen her in awhile so I want to visit with her. I will miss the tour at wabonsie state park. I will call later to arrange a time for me to go there.

today I am tying the porcupine hair on the green roach I am making. I have been doing the never ending job of sorting hair. tying hair will be a break from that. a nice change of pace. time to work……………………

pow wow is over sweetheart

aint trying pull a facebook stunt here. you know where someone posts a selfie every other day to hear people tell them how beautiful they are. I just wanna show my new t-shirt I bought at the pow wow. this one publicizes my website.

I took almost 500 pictures at the pow wow. I edited over 80 of the best ones and put them in a folder on my facebook page. I got a few likes. people like to look at pictures. I used to be a photographer kinda. I have many pictures I took over the years. a picture is worth a thousand words and I have thousands of pictures so I don’t have to say much.

I had my roaches on display at the pow wow. many people looked at them but alas, no one bought any. I anticipated that. no one carries that kinda cash. it takes money to travel to pow wows. I wanted them on display to plant the idea that roaches might be on sale at that prairie band pow wow. maybe over time, someone will carry some bucks to buy a roach.

speaking of my roaches, my for sale page on this site is being fixed up to show case them. I haven’t displayed them for some time because I wasn’t making any while I had an 8-4:30 gig. now I have the time to make roaches.

we had more company. a lady that mary went to school with came for a visit. they made one day at our pow wow. yesterday we gave her and her friend a tour of the rez. I told them about some of our oral history. after that we went to see marys office in Horton and we also showed them part of the Kickapoo rez. we fed them too. gotta follow our teachings. they enjoyed their time here. they are leaving early this morning. they have a 12 hour drive to get home.

I met a coupla men who live near wabonsie state park. they were looking for me at our pow wow. I left my number with the staff at the park. I said I was interested in visiting Wabaunsee’s grave. I want to smoke my pipe there. I have done that at many places where our people used to live. I visited several village sites. I try to remember our ancestors. I will get a chance to go see where wabaunsi lived and where he is buried.

they are having some kind of tour at wabonsie state park this saturday. I told the guys I met I probably wouldn’t be able to make that. my daughter is going to be in Tulsa that day. I plan on driving down to see her. I haven’t seen her in awhile. I will schedule a tour another day.

I have to get busy working on my next roach…..

time to pow wow

tonite pbpn pow wow starts. I haven’t been to any at all this year. this will be my first and probably only pow wow I will attend this pow wow season. that’s okay. it is our pow wow. I will know a lot of the people there. I remember when it used to rain at some of our pow wows. other times it was real hot when it was held in july. we will be able to enjoy fall weather at this one.

I used to travel all over this country to attend pow wows. I went to some just because they were some of the biggest ones. a few are just too big. I have been to a few small traditional pow wows too. while I like pow wows I am not a fanatic about it. I don’t sit there from the first song to the last. I will check out other things when I am at different places. 

I wont stand in line at a pow wow to get an indian taco. I see people that go crazy over them. I only eat indian tacos now and then. I try not to eat too much fried foods. well not counting fried potatoes. 

I charged two of the batteries for my Nikon camera. it takes better pictures than my cell phone. I will take a few pictures. probably more than a few. I have a folder in my computer. it is labeled portraits. it has almost a thousand portraits of people I took. I keep adding to it. I use images of pow wow dancers on my blog. 

I may have the four roaches I finished on display at our pow wow. gotta see if that’s gonna happen. a friend of my sister will have a stand and she agreed to show them. most of the time people don’t carry that kind of extra cash to buy a roach. I mainly want people to see them so when they in the market for one, they will remember this indian that makes roaches. 

I had company the past few days. some of our northern brothers were here. we shared our thoughts on language, history, culture etc. we also shared coffee, indian tea, a few meals and some laughs. I enjoyed our visit. I was invited to come to their place. I may take them up on that offer. 

someone at a flea market told me to start a collection of anything. someday it might be worth something. I ended up with a collection of Pendleton coffee cups. I wasn’t trying to get a collection. it just happened. I bought a couple because I like the size. it is just right for the amount of coffee I drink. I don’t like to use small cups. I was given several as gifts. soon I had a bunch of them. that is what got me started saving them. I did give a few away though.

I had four duplicates. I seen there were Pendleton cups I didn’t have. I had mary try to sell my duplicates for half price of what a new one would cost. someone made a deal with us to buy all four for $30. I took that money and went to the tribes gift shops and bought 4 new ones I didn’t have. one place had a 20% discount and the other had a 30% discount. using that $30 and the discount, I got the new ones for $10 each. not a bad deal. now I have 18 Pendleton cups and each one is a different design.

at the pow wow I will add to my t shirt collection and indian decals for my riding mower. I usually check out the stands for giveaways. I try to find nice things that people will cherish when they are given them. as a people, we are suppose to be giving. I hope to find something because fall dance is coming. meanwhile I will enjoy the pow wow………………

starting another roach

finally finished this yellow roach I was working on. that makes four I have completed. I aint trying to rush them, I got my rhythm going. it don’t take long for me to get one done. I added this yellow roach to my for sale page on this site.

yesterday I dyed yarn and two deer tails Kelly green. that will be part of my next roach. obviously it will be a green roach. i am trying to make as many different colors as I can. eventually I will have a roach to match about any color combination. 

I am continuously sorting hair. that job never seems to end because I have about 15 pounds of hair to go thru. I wont buy any more this year unless it is a real good deal. I have enough hair to easily make over 100 roaches. good thing I had the foresight to buy all the porcupine hair I could get my hands on. 

I will sew up the base for this next roach. that’s the part I don’t care for but it has to be done. its a good thing i had to sew things back in my bachelor days. I remember a pair of dungarees I had in my hippie days. they were full of patches. I musta looked like a street character. 

I wont have my green roach done by pow wow time. the boss ( me) said to kick back and enjoy watching the indians watch the indians. interesting enough I will check out a migo stand for their tacos. or get a smoked turkey leg if that stand is there. I can eat ‘indian food’ anytime. it is always a bit pricey at pow wows anyway. 

speaking of indian food, I have some of my dried corn on. making corn soup with the last of that buffalo roast I had. it is about done. it really tastes good. I grow corn because I like corn soup. it is the best. I don’t have to pay anybody for it. I can pat myself on the back for putting in all the work it takes to grow it. 

I got a call from the KU williams fund people. I renewed my pledge. I do this because I am a big KU mens basketball fan. it allows me to buy tickets before they go on sale to the general public. I have gone to the opening exhibition game for the past 10-15 years. lost track of how many I have been to. the exhibition games are usually blow outs. that’s okay with me. it allows me to go down to the tunnel to high five our players. that is my ritual. 

gotta psyche up for the pow wow…………..

per cap gone, pow wow coming

my per cap is about gone. alas poor per cap, I knew it well.  that’s okay I got my moneys worth. I owed for my battery and tires. I accept that expense. gotta keep the car running. I wanted a road trip but had to cancel it because my tires were shot. now I have to save for my Hawaii trip.

I went to bingo, didn’t win but I had my juice. gotta have that too. I have cut back on my bingo. it costs too much for what you get out of it. I aint like some players who buy up hundreds of cards. they take the fun out of it. 

I bought chicken feed and dog food. I take care of my animals because they take care of me. the dogs would bang against the door when we were walking. they would be anxious to go. they must know I am slightly down because they haven’t done that since my knee stopped me from walking. smart dogs. my knee is better so we will start walking again soon. I wont press it though.

I stopped by the meat locker and bought a mixed bundle. I gotta eat meat that aint full of growth hormones etc.  and the meat from the locker tastes better. its rare that I buy meat from the grocery store. now all we have to do is go to our freezer and get out some pork chops, steaks or bacon.

I will have a few bucks to spend at our pow wow. it is this coming week end. maybe I will buy some decals for my riding mower. it aint pimped out as much as i want. I usually get a t shirt from a tribal members stand. he air brushes them. I get my indian name or my websites name put on a t shirt. 

there are a few people we haven’t seen in awhile who are coming to the pow wow. some are marys friends. some I know. I probably will get in a lot of visiting. gotta charge my Nikon batteries too. need to take some pictures to post on my blog. I lost count of how many pictures I have taken over the years. thousands. I will take some more. 

lately I have been eating oatmeal for breakfast. trying to eat healthy. for years I wouldn’t eat oatmeal. it reminded me of boarding school. we had to eat it every morning except sundays. we were given a bowl of corn flakes for that special day I guess. I have let go of boarding school memories enough that I can now eat oatmeal. I still wont go into a church though. 

I forgot to mention bout when I went to that injun movie last week. they gave me a $2 discount on admission. I seen the sign that said senior citizens got that discount. I liked I saved a coupla bucks but they could have asked me if I was over 60. that would have made me feel better maybe. guess I look like an old guy. I was talking to an old lady at the flea market. she asked why I was limping. I told her. then I said its hell getting old. she nodded. I add but its hell not getting old. she smiled. at least we made it to old age. I know too many that haven’t.